401
The thing which attracts you most of all is your ‘I amness’. You
want to retain that ‘I amness’. You wan to ‘Be’. This ‘I am’ is what
you truly love most. You want to be alive.
402
That love, that knowledge which gives light is the knowledge ‘I
am’. Focus on your beingness until you become established in it.
Only then will you be able to transcend it. Your focus at present is
on air or the breath (addressed to the one doing Pranayama). ‘Be’
that beingness, though, this also is not the final step.
403
Be that ‘I am’, once you know who you are, remain stabilized in
the experience of the Self. Be like Arjuna, Awareness of his Being
remained with him constantly, even when he went into the thick of
battle. Because he was with Krishna, he could go into battle,
knowing that there is nobody who kills and no one who is killed.
404
The knowledge that is prior to thought – ‘I am’ – is covered by a
human body which food with the vital breath and knowledge of the
Self (Prana and Jnana). This means that you are only covered by a
human body. Once you reach that state of ‘I am’ through your
attention you will only be aware of ‘That’ and you will no longer
be affected by all of these tendencies (Vasanas). You will have
transcended them.
405
You have to be one with the Self, the ‘I am’. If you say knowledge,
it is just the same as information.If necessary discard the words ‘I
am’. Even without words you know that ‘you are’. Do not say or
even think that ‘you are’, just be aware of the presence without
thinking about it.
406
Who says that he is alive? Find out, who is the Witness who
‘knows’ that he is alive? This is awareness of one’s existence, ‘I
am’ prior to thought. Who says ‘I am alive’, who says ‘I am not
alive’, what is that? ‘I am’ is not something that can be put into
words; it is the knowledge, the Awareness before thought. You
have to just ‘Be’.
407
Becoming established in the Awareness ‘I am’ is all that is
important. Later on you also transcend the ‘I amness’. Just as a
storm is a form created by nature, similarly this ‘I am’, this
chemical, was also created. Forget about what I have told you,
because that is also a mechanical thing, a chemical. Just be Aware,
and then it won’t matter if you die a hundred times.
408
The child has been given an idea who its parents are, but is just a
concept. Similarly the ‘I am’ is just a concept. The child has been
given the idea that ‘He is’. First you must investigate ‘Who is’ and
what this ‘I amness’ is.You want to know what the support is for
the ‘I am’? My parents supported me! When do these two people,
the husband and the wife become parents? It’s when a child is
born, is that not true? Where are the parents before the birth of the
child? And what is the child? The child is the root of parents; the
child is also the father of the parents. Because of the child the
parents are. This shows how completely hollow our egos are.
409
Once the vital breath leaves the body and this ‘I amness’ ceases to
exist, the ‘I amness’ will not know that ‘It was’. The ‘I amness’ is
not permanent and will forget its association with is body.
410
If you have questions, ask the one who wants to know. Cling to the
questioner – that is your own Beingness, or ‘I amness’. Once you
have done that people will approach you, they will call you a
Mahatma or Anandmayi.
411
My Guru told me ‘Divinity’ (Paramatman) is what you are’, I
heard it and I accepted it, I did not want to gain anything, I just
accepted it. I never knew that ‘I’ existed and suddenly I was aware
that ‘I am’ this Absolute Truth. I had complete faith in the words
of my Guru and then later on everything happened spontaneously.
412
I was always listening to that sacred recitation (Japa, also know as
Ajapajapa - ‘So hum’) which was constantly happening inside me.
The primary cause of this Japa is the knowledge that you have of ‘I
am’
413
This knowledge of ‘I am’ spontaneously appeared, it is prior to the
formation of the five elements. The Absolute (Paramatman,
Parameshwar) is not aware of anything. The state of Awareness
comes later, with knowledge of the ‘I am’. The Absolute has no
knowledge that ‘it was’ (or that ‘it is’). Only when the knowledge
‘I am’ spontaneously appeared could it be concluded that the
Absolute ‘was’ or ‘is’
414
With what identity do you judge me or judge yourself? You
entertain the idea that you are going to have different births, I don’t
believe in any such stories. I know‘I’ never was, that ‘I amness’
was never there for me. I am the unborn state.
415
The ‘I am’ is sustained by the food body, that is, our body, which
is the food for the ‘I am’. Every creature depends on its food and
the ‘I am’ depends upon our body. Will you remember this?
416
I have many photographs of my Guru here, because my Guru ‘is’ I
know ‘I am’. You presume that your Guru is a body-mind and that
is a mistake. I do not look upon my Guru like that. He is merged
into Consciousness and I see him as that.
417
The ‘I am’ is there throughout his or her life even if a person lives
for a hundred years, but the ‘I am’ disappears when the body is
gone. This is called death.
418
There is nothing for you to do, everything just comes into being
and happens. Why are you concerned with what to do? You deal
with the world only after having Consciousness, when the ‘I am’ is
there. Once it is gone everything ends, it is all spontaneous.
419
What I am telling you about the merging of the ‘I am’ with the
Source is the real thing. As you progress and get established in
Beingness you will understand that you are above the dreaming
and waking states, as these pertain only to your ‘I amness’. When
the ‘I amness’ is not there, the tool required to observe is also not
there. Once there is Self-realization, the whole riddle is solved.
420
First there was the desire to ‘Be’. From this ‘I am’ the air came
first and the earth last. Then from earth came the vegetation and
many forms of life, each having this ‘I amness’. Because of the
five elements you have the body and in that body is the ‘I amness’.
421
By chanting ‘I am Brahman’ you become subtle and escape the
sense of body and mind. You must accept that you are without a
body-mind and that you are subtle. That sense must be instilled in
you. I took to this Brahma state, my Beingness or ‘I amness’ and
observe my body.
422
You must become initiated into the understanding of what I am
expounding to you. I am telling about the seed of ‘Brahman’. You
have to understand that I am planting the ‘Brahma’ seed in you.
That ‘Brahma’ seed is your ‘Iamness’ (Beingness), which sprouts
into manifestation. That ‘Brahman’ (‘I am’) state does not require
anything to eat, it has no hunger, because ‘Brahman’ alone
embraces everything and all manifestation is ‘Brahman’. I am
trying to raise you to that state. Do not think that you can become a
realized soul only by listening to a few talks. You have to forget
everything and merge with ‘Brahman’.
423
Who is it that needs to understand this the most, the knowledge
that ‘I am’? If you listen carefully and imbibe the principles, you
will get rid of this body-mind sense and dwell only in the ‘I
amness’ (Beingness). In order to know the link between ‘I am’ and
‘I am not’, hold on only to the ‘I amness’ without words, ‘just be’.
When hailed, you respond, there is somebody within you that
becomes aware of the call and the need to respond. That being is
the ‘I am’ and he has been there even before that awareness
appeared.
424
The moment the ‘I amness’ explodes or appears, all of space is lit
up. The entire sky is the expression of your Beingness, yet you
believe that you are only the body. Your love for the body limits
your horizons. But the moment those walls come down, you are
one with ‘Brahman’ and the whole universe.
425
The witness cannot ‘be’ in the absence of the knowledge ‘I am’.
Who are you seeing if you are not aware of the ‘I am’? You have
covered everything with this ‘Iam’ knowledge. The five elemental
world is only the creation of this ‘I amness’.
426
Be alert to the ‘I am’ and all other experiences will be transcended.
The next elevation will only come when you abide in the Self.
When you are convinced that ‘all of Consciousness is my Self’,
when the conviction is firmly embedded, then only will the
question of the next elevation arise.
427
Dwell on the principle (‘I am’) of that state for a sufficiently long
time. All the greatness, significance and magnificence of the entire
world is dwelling in the principle ‘you are’ and ‘I am’ That is the
prop and that itself is the greatness. There is no other remedy, no
other path, except implicit faithand conviction in the Self.
428
Take it that you are That. ‘That’ means no shape, no design.
Whatever you see pertains only to That, to your ‘I amness’.
Spontaneously ‘It is’! You are That principle. Don’t try to unravel
it with your intellect. Just observe and accept it as it is.
429
Whatever is created is created by the knowledge ‘I am’. Do not
pursue this path of running after experiences. Your own
Consciousness creates everything. All greatness is because of the ‘I
am’. There is no other path, only this conviction. This is it! The
name and body arise from the ‘I am’
430
This knowledge is anciemt (’Sanatan’), it has come from Eternity.
From the eternal Absolute, which is ever there, a seed appears, that
seed is the ‘I amness’. It appears spontaneously, its remnant is in
us. This little seed (‘I am’) sprouts and the whole world is created.
431
In the case of a devotee (‘Bhakta’), initially the devotee does not
want to leave God. Later on, evenif the devotee asks God to go,
God will not leave him. God means the knowledge ‘I am’. The
knowledge ‘I am’ is God (‘Bhagwan’).
432
Since everything is ‘You’, you can’t cut it away from you. This
knowledge of ‘I amness’ is part of you. How can you throw it
away? And where can you throw it? When you established in
Beingness (the ‘I am’), you realize everything is ‘You’, it is all
your creation.
433
That principle ‘I am’ is your illusion but the Oneness got rid of that
illusion. Then one is without body or mind. The principle of
Oneness has no shape, therefore male and female have no shape –
this is the wedding of the male and female. At that stage the barren
women conceived and progeny is delivered! That is the ‘I am’ state
and that is the universe. But this Oneness is not a state of illusion.
434
This knowledge of ‘I amness’ that is there in you contains the
whole universe. The knowledge that I am expounding is to that
divinity within you (the ‘I am’) and not to a human being. The ‘I
amness’ which having created the universe is dwelling within you
as the remnant. The very core of that knowledge ‘You are’
contains the whole universe.
435
When I talk I refer to the ‘I am’ knowledge and not to me
personally. As long as you are attached to and identified with the
body you will never have peace. But once you get rid of the body
attachment you could be the king and ruler of the world, yet still be
at peace.
436
Knowing that you are not the body, watch the vital breath as a flow
of the mind. You are here in the spark of ‘I amness’. When you
acknowledge the ‘I amness’ you become the spark. I am like space
and do not have an identity – this is my ‘I amness’ from which all
the talk is being produced.
437
Unless you have the understanding of ‘I amness’, there is no
progress. Once you understand the ‘I am’, there is nothing further
to understand. When your ‘I amness’ is gone, together with
everything, then there is nothing. Then that Nothingness is
everything, but there no one left to say so.
438
This body is only the food body for the consumption and the
sustenance of the ‘I amness’. You have to remain in that Beingness
or Consciousness with firm faithwhile having no identification
with the body or the personality, or with name and form. Always
identify yourself with Consciousness, it will take a while for this
conviction to root, but persist.
439
‘I am’ is there without saying ‘I am’. ‘I amness’ without thought is
love, love is not taken from the ‘I amness’ The Self becomes
manifest when love gets established as the ‘I amness’.
440
The ‘I amness’ together with the vital breath appear spontaneously
when the body is created. The vital breath and food body are
necessary to sustain the ‘I amness’. When the food body is dropped
by the vital breath the ‘I amness’ disappears. Where does the flame
go when it is extinguished? The same thing applies to the ‘I
amness’.
441
‘I amness’ and Maya are the watcher and the Lila respectively. The
‘I am’ is not involved in any of the activity. I am expounding this
knowledge from the ‘I am’ level, though my normal state observes
the ‘I amness’.
442
When you get established in the Beingness there no thoughts or
words – You are everything and everything is You. Later even that
ceases to exist. Krishna made Arjuna realize that the whole world
is Krishna. He realized that the knowledge ‘I am’, which means the
manifestation of the entire universe, spontaneously appeared on
him.
443
These questions arise because of the conditioning of egoism. When
you are in the ‘I amness’, there is no egoism – it is completely
liquidated. Consciousness appears, is seen and then again is gone.
It is like air in the sky. The mistake happens because we consider
‘That’ Consciousness to be the individual consciousness.
444
‘I amness’ is without ego. The subsequent products are the mind
and the ego. The quality of ‘I amness’ or Beingness is intuition and
inspiration. Just like when you have seed and plant it, it must
sprout. Similarly the quality of Beingness must sprout.
445
The active part is called Maya, and is due to the mind. The inactive
part is called ‘I amness’ or Purusha, which is just watching. Only
when you identify with that which is stationary, the Purusha, can
you become the watcher of the ‘I amness’ and all of its activities.
446
Without this ‘I amness’ the Absolute does not know that ‘It is’.
Watching is not deliberate. Watching happens to the Absolute only
with the appearance of ‘I amness’. The ‘I amness’, like binoculars,
must be there and available for watching to happen.
447
Whatever activities happen, happen only because of your ‘I
amness’. They make no impression on the ‘I amness’. Judgements
like good or bad are aspects of the mind, but if you are one with
that ‘I amness’, then at that stage the mind is not there.
448
The witnessing of the ‘Ishwara’ state occurs to Me. ‘Ishwara’ is the
manifestation of the five elements and the universe. The witnessing
of the ‘I amness’ occurs to the Absolute. A disciple (Sadhaka) who
is getting established in the ‘Ishwara’ principle should not claim
this understanding (Siddha).
449
The entire manifestation of your world and universe is just the
expression and manifestation of your Beingness. The
Consciousness or ‘Ishwara’ is not that of an individual. ‘Ishwara’
means the expression of all forms. This chemical, this ingredient,
is your ‘I amness’ and it is sustained by consuming the food body.
450
The Absolute is watching this ‘I amness’ that is sustained by the
food body. Is it clear? After some time passes in the waking state,
rest is required, so the ‘I amness’ goes into oblivion. It goes to rest
and forgets itself. You may not comprehend exactly what it means
now, but as you get established in the Beingness you will
understand how.
451
‘You’ are above the waking and dreaming states, because those are
only expressions of your Beingness. The waking and dreaming
states pertain only to your ‘I amness’. We are only able to observe
because of the ‘I amness’. When the ‘I amness’ is not there the tool
to observe is also not there. If you are deep inside everything is
gone! And there is no ‘I am’. Then the ‘I am’ merges in the
Absolute.
452
The primary concept is the ‘I am’, out of it are created all other
concepts. You have come from the primary concept, so long as you
have the need to be, you have this prolific wonderful world and all
the Gods are available. The distinction between the world and
Brahman has come because you want to sustain your beingness,
the ‘I am’, the manifest world is made important by you because
you want to be. Whatever without it (consciousness) is perfect.
Only that is, nothing else. My body is universal, not individualistic.
What is this ‘I am’ business? Understand it and be apart from it,
transcend it. Just be.
453
I don’t discuss Brahman or Maya; I tell you my story which is your
story as well. With Atmajnana (Self-knowledge) the ‘I’
consciousness is not there. Then I don’t worry about God or
illusion. The ‘I am’ is the starting point of both misery and
happiness.
454
Prior to the appearance of form in the womb, food stuffs take the
form ‘I am’ and that appears in nine months. With birth the bodily
functions begin, the child does not know that it is. As the child
begins to identify, the sense of ‘I amness’ takes shape, only then
the mother can teach the misleading headings like body name and
so forth. Prior to the waking or sleep state is the Parabrahman. The
state which gives you knowledge is Brahman.
455
The body falls down but what happened to me? For that principle
for which you get no reply, is perfect, whatever answer you get is
wrong. If I think of this world, why should I not inquire about prior
to consciousness? If I tackle this question, I must investigate what
is this principle of ‘I am’? I would prefer to play with that child not
born because eternal Parabramhan and unborn children are alike.
456
I am experiencing the manifest world but prior to it I experience
the ‘Bindu’, the point. When I am that Bindu, everything is, the
world also is. The Bindu and the world are not two. ‘Bin’ means
without and ‘du’ means two, so, no duality. Bindu – the point of ‘I
amness’, I experience that. What is it? It is the very experience of
the five elements and the three gunas – the whole universe. That is
my intimate relationship with that ‘I am’ only – Bindu only.
457
Whatever is observed in the manifest world is your own Self, The
observer is ‘I am’, It is a receptacle of the five elements and three
gunas. The entire universe is in activity because of the three gunas.
The play of the entire world is based on the five elements and three
gunas. But you cling to your body; the body is also a play of the
five elements and three gunas.
458
The whole life is endured and sustained by the knowledge particle,
‘I am’. Without ‘I am’ there is no life. They are interdependent, not
one without the other. I am prior to the ‘I am’, which is true,
eternal and immutable. Beingness,world and body are time bound,
your life is not for ever, it rises and sets like the waking and
sleeping states alternate. The totality of manifestation thrives as
long as the beingness is there.
459
The five elements disintegrate but I don’t disappear. For instance, I
am invited to some place to stay. The room in which I stay
becomes my room, but does it belong to me? All belongs to the
five elements. The essential contribution of the five elements is the
‘I am’ the five elements disintegrate, the ‘I am’ goes and a person
is declared dead. Wherever I go to stay I always know my
permanent abode.
460
Whatever you observe, you don’t require, that principle through
which ‘you are’ is greater. In the waking state ‘you are’ so you
have needs, in the absence of ‘I amness’ where are the needs? In
spite of being, not having the knowledge of being is non-being,
that state is a source of peace.
461
The sense of taste comes from the element earth, perception
emanates from air and sound from space, but the primary concept
is ‘I am’. First without sound you know ‘I am’ (as when you
awaken from deep sleep), then you say ‘I am’, with this comes the
need ‘to be’. With the departure of the vital breath, there is no
sound, no language, no warmth – its death, death is also a concept.
Nevertheless, everything dwells in food essence quality (‘I am’),
when this disappears – it is all over. To sustain beingness, the
product of food, we eat food, but that is not your identity.
462
The ‘I am’ is objective, it is the ‘I am’ that investigates and it is the
‘I am’ that disposes itself off and stabilizes in Eternity. The body is
made up of elements; the quintessence or quality (guna) is the ‘I
am’. You replenish the food-body or ‘I amness’ with water and
food.
463
What is Ishwara? My Guru told methat the one who is listening is
Ishwara itself. The ‘I am’ is Ishwara, there are various names given
to that ‘I am’ but that ‘I am’ is not your body. Your knowledge ‘I
am’ contains the whole universe, presently it is difficult for you to
believe, so for the moment worship it. Beingness contains
everything, worship that and all your requirements will be met.
Ultimately the knowledge is yours.
464
Beingness is the lord of the universe, therefore, all the time, be
with the lord of manifestation and all your problems and puzzles
will be cleared. This knowledge that ‘I am’ makes perception
possible, make it you own. Whatever you may want, just do this
(abide in the ‘I am’) and you will have everything. In this
knowledge ‘I am’ is the entire universe. Consciousness is the lord
of all manifestation, only because of the body that we consider this
consciousness as a bodily principle.
465
Without the intake of food, there is no opportunity to say ‘I am’,
out of the essence of the earth sprouts vegetation and out of that
sprouts the ‘I am’, realize this without eyesight or intellect. That
principle likes to cry, enjoy, and laugh, but you are not that, realize
this only. Become one with the ‘Iam’, then you can transcend it,
then ‘I the Absolute’ am not the ‘I am’.
466
Worship the beingness, which is nothing but suffering. Worship
misery and it will become less and less. It will also help you to get
rid of misery; this ‘I am’ is itself misery, make any use of it as you
like. If you like you may take it as Prarabdha (Destiny).
467
There is no difference in the types of ‘I amness’, I experience
fatigue now, good health earlier, but the common factor is
beingness which has not changed. All is illusion, the ‘I am’ is
knowledge, but it’s also an illusion, say what you like, nothing
prevails, except the knowledge ‘you are’. You presume that the
world has existed without your beingness; your world is with your
arrival, not prior to it, if you are not, your world is not.
468
The talk about myself is the talk about yourself. Let any worthy
one reach to any heights, anywhere, but it is time-bound. Any
height! It is just a passage of time. Time means the Sun – the world
is because of it – beingness. The sum total means ‘you are’,
beingness only, when the knowledge ‘I am’ sets, the world is
liquidated, Nivritti – no message ‘I am’.
469
But I have already told you, you are Ishwara. You have to have the
conviction that ‘I am That’, a mental determination. With the
appearance of the knowledge ‘I am’, appears the space and the four
other elements, your beingness gives rise to them, first beingness,
then others When you identify with it and stabilize in the
beingness, you are not even that. In the knowledge of the Jnani (or
theAbsolute), the world is all a spectacle, the Jnani is apart from
the knowledge ‘ I am’.
470
You are ‘That’ only, prior to them (concepts and memory) is the ‘I
am’, further still when you recede, is the Absolute. But most
people die with memory and concepts. Who understands that
memory is not operating today?It’s the knowledge ‘I am’.
Surrender to the beingness, from it all movement happens; go to
the source of the movement which is the beingness. Hammer it into
yourself that your own beingness is the parent of the entire
manifestation. Beingness will helpyou in abiding in itself,
beingness is observed by the Ultimate (the Absolute) that has no
senses, no eyes, but witnessing just happens. I am introducing you
to your own beingness, the first stage is to meditate on the
beingness, abide in it.
471
With whatever concepts you hold on you go to a Guru, if he is a
Jnani he gets rid of all your concepts. But what is the main concept
on which all depends? It’s the ‘I am’, the ‘I am’ is itself a concept.
It is a basic source from which all other concepts flow. Getting a
firm conviction about yourself isto become a Sadguru (the one
beyond the ‘I am’)whatever is termed as Parabrahman – the
Absolute – is your true Self.
472
Whatever you presently know is false, if the ‘I am’ is there,
Ishwara is there. The ‘I am’ is Ishwara’s soul and Ishwara is my
soul, both exist together. Ishwara is without limits, I am also like
that, like Ishwara, penniless. Now, just forget everything and find
out how will you be on a permanent basis? All this talk of God and
yourself is just for killing time. Go ahead, no God, no I, as long as
you have cravings, knowledge will not be yours, Ishwara dies
before me.
473
Prior to birth there is no waking, sleeping or the beingness (the
knowledge ‘I am’), these three are born and are dependent on the
food essence. When this essence becomes weak, the three states
depart. Who is born or dies? In the absence of the three states, did
you know God? Did you know that you existed?
474
By staying in this knowledge (‘I am’) you can dissolve the subtle
body. The pill – the three states (waking, sleep and beingness) –
dissolves. Then there is no coming,till then the subtle body will
remain. So long the food essence is there the ‘I am’ knowledge is
there, once the essence is exhausted, knowings goes.
475
The knowledge ‘I am’ is within you with that conviction you
worship. One who meditates on the knowledge, ‘I am’, everything
in the realm of consciousness becomes clear to him. He lives
without telling it, hence from this place, you carry the conviction
about yourself that you know the knowledge ‘I am’ is God, there
can be no other gain.
476
Day by day your conviction that the knowledge. ‘I am’ is God
must grow. Don’t care about the body, by constant meditation,
when God is pleased, you will have complete knowledge in the
realm of Consciousness. You may go anywhere, but don’t forget
that the knowledge, ‘I am’ itself is God.
477
Until that voice (‘I am’) of consciousness came, I was not
concerned. Once it left, I went too, so be with the consciousness
(the ‘I am’), all the teachings are based on this. This concern for
the world is because of consciousness; it will be there as long as
consciousness is there.
478
The ‘I am’ is all, the God, just know that the ‘I am’ is God, this is
the first step, the knowledge ‘I am’ is yourself. All other activities
will follow; you just get established in the knowledge. ‘I am’, it is
the sun, and all other activities are rays
479
The knowledge ‘I am’, without memories and concepts, is
everything. The idea ‘I am the body and mind’ is not that
knowledge. No effort is required, the main thing is that ‘you are’
(or ‘I am’) when you listen to me and stay there, you’ll understand
that the knowledge ‘I am’ is independent of body-mind.
480
Go to the source and be established there, then, there is no change.
You might have read the Gita, who is there to judge its soundness?
The knowledge ‘I am’ has to approve whatever is said there.
Establish yourself in the Self, whatever you are prior to the ‘I am’,
get established there. When this abidance in the Self is achieved,
all talks with sound gibberish.
481
This knowledge (‘I am’) is for each man to understanding and be
still in it. By understanding the Self you understand the world,
what else is there? You are as large as the world, if you are; the
world is, otherwise not. The trap of birth and death is because of
the ‘I am’, dwell on it, realize it and transcend it.
482
The confidence and knowledge that ‘you are’, on what does it
depend? Beingness becomes no beingness and no-beingness
spontaneously becomes beingness, so whom should we question?
You should yourself investigate it; what is the support of the ‘I
am’? On what does the faith that‘you are’ depend? Why is there
beingness? Why am I? How am I? People only think of the body
and mind, then, come death and the faith ‘I am’ disappears.
483
From deep sleep you wake up, that border is Paravani, beyond
words. When you move, become conscious, you feel ‘I am’, then
mind takes charge, words take over and you are embroiled in the
world. Paravani is other than language, ‘Para’ means ‘other’ or
‘transcend’ – the language of just being without words, but I, The
Absolute, am not that
484
The one, who tries to abide in the Self, loses identity with his ego.
The very identity that ‘I am’ gets dissolved. Your true identity –
The Absolute – is prior to the ‘I am’. How can you provide a
uniform (the ocher robe) to it?
485
Everyone, from plants to creatures, want and know the ‘I am’ to be
there, once we have existence, we want it to continue. Your
experience is because of the beingness, the world depends on
beingness, is it happy or miserable? When your beingness is not
there, is it happy or miserable?
486
Become free from concepts, no concepts, including the ‘I am’. The
‘I am’ is the primary concept, the primary illusion The primary
concept itself, for its sustenance, created so many substances, like
wheat flour and wheat products. Out of the touch of ‘I amness’
arose so many concepts and various names.
487
Did you ever see the moon and all before the appearance of the
beingness, Brahma or this illusion? Although the ‘I am’ is ample
and plenty, it is an illusion that induces multiplicity. This manifest
world is a dynamic play of the five elements and there is no scope
for an individual. Just as a diamond radiates from all sides,
similarly in deep meditation you will realize that you are this entire
manifestation.
488
My Guru taught me what ‘I am’, I pondered only on that. My
consciousness appeared along with my body form. My original
state is to be in that state where there is no ‘I am’. I am explaining
my state of affairs, from my standpoint you must realize yourself.
489
The ‘I am’ consciousness is the advertisement of The Absolute.
The Absolute is unknown, what you call Ishwara, Brahma and so
forth are hoardings of The Absolute.
490
I know that this manifest Brahman or Cosmos is unreal, time bound and unstable. The message ‘I am’ has spontaneously come
and is the root of the manifested world. The message ‘I am’,
caught hold of the body as its identity and suffering started. The ‘I
am’ happened and the world was cooked up. Even this
information, you got later, when the ‘I am’ came into friction,
recognized the body, mother and so on, prior to that you did not
have the message ‘I am’, you existed, but you did not know.
491
In that non-subjective state, the subject started. In the infinite state,
the ‘I am’ state is temporary; don’t give up your true standpoint
otherwise you will be fooled. To whatever extent you would
conduct your search, it would still be in the realm of ‘I am ness’.
Don’t retain it (‘I am’) in memory, then you will be happy.
492
Catch hold of that ‘I am’ only and all obstacles will evaporate. If
you correctly understand me, you will be beyond the realm of
body-mind. Many a times it happens that teachings are
misunderstood. Because the ‘I am’ is there, these questions arise, If
the ‘I am’ is not there, no questions can arise. In the realm of ‘I
am’ anything is possible, but if I were alert enough, do you think I
would have been in this body? The Jnani is the one who knows
that beingness, the world and Brahman are unreal. Having
understood the ‘I am’, I transcend it and came to the conclusion
that all the three entities are unreal, and then what more remains to
be liquidated? The ‘Parabrahman’ is without attributes and I am
‘Parabrahman’, I am not the being ness, the world nor Brahman
493
Manifested Brahma is the ‘I am’, whatever principle is prior to the
utterance of sound, that principle proclaims by itself. What I insists
is that you must stabilize is that state. The recitation of the mantra
‘So Hum’ must be for a very long time, it is prior to words. When
that ‘So Hum’ principle, is pleased, that principle, represented by
these words, expounds knowledge.
494
The ‘So Hum’ Japa is incessantly going on in your pulse,
indicating ‘I am’ get in tune with it by recitation. That ‘So Hum’
energy without words is the raw material of incarnations and the
incarnations are the hoardings of the primary principle. The
primordial principle is ‘Parabrahman’; its advertisement is done by
movement, the stirrings of ‘So Hum’. By its movement it is
praising the primordial principle, that advertising material is the
‘Moolmaya’ (Primary Illusion). That incarnating principle – the
‘Moolmaya’– gives knowledge to the incarnated.
495
What is your core state? In that true accomplished state, there is no
scope for even space, let alone the words. In the process of
understanding my Guru’s words as to how ‘I am’ I realized ‘I am
not’. In that state there is no un struck sound either. In the process
of Neti,Neti (Not this, not this) it happens, in the state of ‘I
amness’ finally everything disappears and you get stabilized. If
you realize and stabilize, then even if you are silent people will fall
at your feet.
496
The ‘I am’ is the only God to be pleased. Whatever you presently
know about God is only bargaining. Your very existence or
beingness is the proof that God exists. If I am not, God is not.
God’s existence is due to the consciousness, the ‘I am’, please it
and it will lead you to its source.
497
Intelligence is innately there like fire in the match stick. The final
culmination of the elemental interplay is the human body, where
the touch of ‘I am’ appears. Birth is like a spark coming from the
rubbing of stones, there is the elemental friction and you have the
spark ‘I am’. The qualities of a Bodhisattva are due to the
knowledge ‘I am’, but that is temporary and so the perfect Jnani
says all manifestation is unreal, only ‘Parabrahman’ is real.
498
This body packet of the five elements gets conditioned into the ego
or individuality. When you transcend the body you dwell in the ‘I
am’ (in manifestation), at that stage you know that all is the five
elemental play. So long as the ‘I amness’ prevails or the ‘I am’ is
realized it is also realized that there is another Absolute principal
to which witnessing happens, and That Absolute principal is
beyond time.
499
The ‘I am’ is the center or the essence of the food body, which is a
result of the five elements. Out of spacial activity there is water,
vegetation and so forth, so ‘I amness’ is a culmination of the five
elemental activity. This ‘I amness’, whenever enjoyed beyond the
body is your destiny. When you dwell in destiny as ‘I am’, you
realize that it is not your death, but the disappearance of ‘I
amness.’ You just dwell in it, and itself it will tell you its own
story.
500
Who is a Jnani? A Jnani is one who has come to a conclusion
about the raw material of the ‘I am’ and that he stands apart from
it. You presume that you have a lot of knowledge, yet you have not
been able to get rid of your identity, but even if you keep in mind
just two words (‘I am’), your job is done.
501
You reduce your identification with the body, in that process the
knowledge ‘I am’ which knows itself, will be clear. If you embrace
the body sense, there will be a lot of questions. If the knowledge
‘you are’ is not there, will any bodykeep this body? The principle
that rejects or gives up the body is your Self.
502
What do you mean by ‘I am’ or the feeling of ‘you are’? All the
names relate to the ‘I amness’, Atman also is its name. If there is
no ‘I amness’, whose names can these all be? You cannot say this
and that consciousness, your consciousness is your world only. To
fully understand and realize all this, do meditation. That sound, the
humming ‘I am’, is the Ishwara sound. It is a reminder that, you
are God, but your reject the soundless sound by identifying with
the body. On your own authority, in absence of the ‘I am’
principle, what can you do?
503
Go to the root and you conclude ‘I am’… yes… yes…, you say ‘I
am’, without words. Investigation will reveal that it is a result of
the five elemental play. There is another principle that observes the
‘I am’ and the elemental play.
504
The ‘I am’ means all this spectacle that you are seeing, later, you
also see that number of universes are playing in that ‘I am’. When
you understand all this verbally, you may become a pseudo-Guru,
which is not realization. You must realize that you only observe,
and you are not that, you are not that ‘I am’ in which universes are
playing.
505
That (Absolute) state is not to be experienced, about that you can’t
speak. Just be that state, what is experienced is not truth. What is
experienced is not truth that is the primary problem. I did not know
that I was in that state, suddenly I knew, ‘I am’, thus all the
trouble. In that state there was no knowings, suddenly ‘I am’
and I caught hold of the body. My identity of ‘I amness’ is the
entire manifestation, not individual body. All the trouble began
with the ‘otherness’, a quality that came with ‘I amness’.
506
Whenever there is a problem you ask: ‘let us find the state of
affairs as they are’, don’t try to bluff, and then the solution comes.
So in this fraudulent play of the manifest world I went on to find
the actual position, the ‘I amness’ means world manifestation and
it is a time bound state, so why should I bother? Presently ‘I
amness’ is bubbling and challenging, but all this is time bound,
pride will go along with the ‘I am’ (So Hum), later on, ‘no-I am’
(No Hum).
507
Just try to be in that ‘I am ness’ don’t try to put effort and
concentration When ‘you are’ it is ‘I am ness’, when ‘you are’ the
being ness is automatically there. Whatever ‘you are’ without doing
any effort, be there. Don’t try to interpret ‘I am ness’. You are
without the body sense, when you identify with body-mind, then
the trouble begins
508
The ‘I am’ in body form can reach the highest state, if you accept it
and dwell there you escape birth and death. Just be in that
principle, there are no disciplines for this. If you do penance it is
because you have sinned in previous births, but if you really come
across a sage he shows you your true nature.
509
The Atman has no birth, this touch of ‘I am’ is a hoarding of the
Absolute, and only the advertisement disappears. The ‘I am’ is an
illusion, temporary; the one who knows this knows the eternal
principle. Whatever experiences you enjoy are an imperfect state.
You involve yourself in practices, because the mind does not let
you be quiet.
510
The ‘I am’ is in a dormant condition in the womb, it is an ignorant
condition. How could it know itself? At three years or so the
knowledge ‘I am’ comes spontaneously with the formation of
body. Around middle age it is at a climax, while in old age the
quality of ‘I amness’ is diminished. Then finally the ‘I am’
disappears, and identity too is gone.
511
Whatever concepts I give blast your concepts. I have presently no
abundance of thoughts but only those pertaining to the ‘I am’. A
common man he feels that his hopes and desires would be fulfilled
so life if important to him. After listening to the talks here all
hopes and desires are not fulfilled, but you transcend them.
512
In the waking state, the witnessing state is always there. There is
no other Brahman greater than you,accept this and go, you are the
greatest. In that small round cell is contained all the space, in it the
Cosmos and earth are there, that small cell is the principle of ‘I am’
The moment it is there, space is manifested, the womb is space
started from the small cell ‘I am’.
513
All multiplicity is manifested from the Ishwara principle; it is
sprouting from the ‘I am’ principle, Ishwara, or ‘I am’ is the
manifest principle. If you don’t forget yourself for four days, you
will die. You did not know you were, suddenly you felt ‘you are’
and with ‘I am ness’ you started counting age. When exactly you
felt that ‘you are’? Dwell there, ponder over it.
514
In the body there is already that self-accomplished principle ‘I am’
which is witnessing mind and body, it is neither mind, body nor the
vital breath. It has to be gradually realized that this principle has no
form; it is subtler than the mind.By mistake the ‘I am’ accepts the
body as itself, it is an exclusive principle apart from the body,
mind and vital breath.
515
If petty worldly knowledge has no form, then can the knowledge ‘I
am’ or Ishwara state have any form? If you accept this, then accept
it and go and don’t go elsewhere, just dwell there. Let any activity
happen through your knowledge ‘I am’, which has no form, but is
its witness only. The knowledge ‘you are’ has no form, so also for
other knowledge. ‘You are’ is the primary knowledge.
516
I am talking about knowledge, whatever knowledge the ‘I am’ is,
it’s the knowledge. You are living to sustain that knowledge ‘I
am’, hence you struggle. If that knowledge is gone, what interest
could you have? You are like a doctor taking care, the knowledge
‘you are’ is nourishing and protecting the body. Remember this, if
you want to remember me, remember the knowledge ‘I am’.
Ancestors told us to meditate on me, remember me, but they also
said that the knowledge ‘I am’ is me too.
517
Primarily because of your identification with your body, you have
polluted God. Because of your association with body, you have
fear of death. There is no death only the vital breath departs and ‘I
am’ disappears. Body is the sustenance of ‘I am ness’ or Atman. I
say, if you want to remember this visit, remember the knowledge ‘I
am’, or remember the knowledge ‘you are’.
518
This ‘I am ness’ quality is the Sattva guna (food essence quality). I
am The Absolute, I am not that touch of ‘I am ness’, so long ‘I am’
is there witnessing will happen to The Absolute spontaneously.
The dawn and sunlight depend on time, but their observer does not
depend on time.
519
The ‘I am’ in a child is dormant, it does not know itself, but it is
there, in due course it knows itself and as a one knows ‘I am’. Go
to the root, the beginning of the child, when you understand that
you are not consciousness, stabilize there; understand and get out.
520
‘I am ness’ is there provided these stages (waking or sleep) are
there, by itself it cannot be. Simultaneously, all these three stages
are a product of food essence. In the absence of body sense, is
there any community of waking and sleep states? Have this
affirmation, forget spirituality and dwell there (in the ‘I am’).
521
The body identity cannot get this knowledge, the knowledge ‘I am’
must get this knowledge ‘I am’, when knowledge abides in
knowledge there is transcendence of knowledge.
522
You are beyond all desire, which itself depends solely on the ‘I
am’ consciousness. Do not attempt to suppress your desires,
simply refrain from identifying with them – ‘I am not this desire’.
The desire will, of itself, disappear. When all desire has vanished,
consciousness (‘I am’) will also vanish – what remains is the
Reality.
523
All actions are performed by the ‘Ishwara’ principle (‘I am’) which
is time-bound and has its being in the unknown. So what is there to
do? Why say that I do anything? The ‘I am’ consciousness does
everything and this ‘I am’ is nothing but knowledge without
attributes, which is time-bound.
524
The greatest obstacle is the ‘I am’ growing over your true nature,
which gives you the feeling ‘I am doing this’ and ‘I am so and so’,
so you feel benefited by this ‘Iam’, but you are really being
cheated by it.
525
When the consciousness of ‘I am’ becomes pure (simply the ‘I am’
and not ‘I am this ‘or ‘I am that’) – you become ‘Ishwara’ (God or
creator) and the sky becomes your body.
526
The ‘I am’ is the purest form of attribute (it can be even said to
have no attributes). When even this pure attribute goes it is
‘Parabrahman’, ‘Brahman’ (God or ‘I am’) means that ‘the news’
has arrived. When this ‘news’ has gone, it is ‘Parabrahman’. That
you exist is the primary knowledge.
527
This ‘I am’ consciousness in its purity, having only one attribute
(that ‘it is’), is also know as ‘Saguna Brahman’ (God with form),
which is also known as the ‘Ishwara Rupa’ (form of the Lord).
This pure attribute of ‘I am’ consciousness is called ‘Sattva
(harmony) guna (element or quality) from which other ‘gunas’
(qualities) follow, when this ‘Sattva’ dries up, so does reflected
consciousness.
528
The consciousness of ‘I am’ is the first and foremost thing. This
feeling (that ‘I am conscious’) comes to you only because there is
something older or earlier to which this ‘I am’ consciousness
appears. All change appears superimposed upon the changeless
substratum.
529
You must pay attention to the ‘I am’, being constantly alert and
focused on the ‘I am’ only. The five elements are only an
extension of your own Self, you must be fully acquainted with the
‘I am’ in order to go inwards.
530
This interval between the beginning of ‘I am’ consciousness (birth
and waking state) and until you lose it again (death and deep sleep
state) is called ‘time’. Time and attributes are not two, but one, and
both must pass away.
531
That you exist (as a personality, the feeling or consciousness of ‘I
am’) is an illusion, therefore whatever is seen through this illusion
cannot be real. All of what I am saying – this whole discussion is
illusion, beyond that you must proceed yourself.
532
You cannot transcend activity until you return to the Source. That
you exist (in the ‘I am’ sense) is the illusion, its nature is to divide
and appear as many. When the feeling ‘I am’ arises you attach
reality to the objective world, which is constantly undergoing
transformation and change. I know that it is ‘Maya’ (‘whatever is
not’).
533
When Krishna says, ‘I remember all my past births’, he means that
he remembers ‘I am’ which is the fundamental feeling behind all
births. There is no ‘I am such and such’.
534
From consciousness alone we are directed to act. Consciousness
appears on Awareness and acts. Awareness does not act, it is the
pure witness. The consciousness of you, or Pure consciousness, is
the ‘Ishwara’ or God or ‘I am’ state i.e., Universal consciousness.
This is not personal consciousness. The whole world is created by
the consciousness. When this consciousness is limited to an
individual, it becomes the ego, intellect, mind or ‘Jiva’.
535
The ‘I am’ state has great potency, and from this the manifestation
of the universe has taken place. After the ‘I am’ merges in the Pure
Awareness, the entire universe vanishes as though it had never
existed. The first step is to go to this ‘I am’ state, remain there and
then merge and go beyond. Try to sustain this ‘I am’ state, stay
unconcerned by thoughts of both good and bad.
536
There are millions of visions and experiences present in the seed of
the ‘I am’, but being aloof and unconcerned about them is the key
go beyond. The most relaxed state is this ‘I am’ state – free from
all fear and anxiety. The ‘Om’ is consciousness or ‘I am’ itself.
537
One must be in the ‘I am’ continuously and effortlessly with the
idea- ‘I am not the body’. All unhappiness is caused by claiming
‘doer ship’ of actions, do not claim ‘doer ship’ and unhappiness will
vanish. Even the ‘I am’ is a mirage, time-bound and would
disappear.
538
‘Sat-Guru’ is your true Self. The ‘I am’ is the ‘Guru’ or
consciousness in a body. This ‘I am’ is witnessed by the Self in
you or the ‘Sat-Guru’ which is un-manifest. The ‘Guru’ is the
manifested consciousness.
539
Consciousness in its purity is ‘Turiya’ (pure ‘I am’ or the fourth
state), but I am beyond it and living in (as) the ‘Turiyatita’ (Reality
or the Absolute).
540
Repetition of ‘Mantra’ takes one to the pure ‘I am’ state or ‘Sattva
Guna’ and from there one merges into the source of all bliss, and
then, all knowledge that you possess is laid down or surrendered
and you merge with the Absolute beyond all name and form.
541
Go to the ‘I am’ level and dwell there. Because you at the body
level revel in all these objective things, but if you were to go to the
‘I am’ and firmly abide in that, then all these external things will
lose grip on you.
542
‘There is nobody else but me or my consciousness’, this is
‘Advaita-Bhakti’ (Non-dual devotion) – ‘I am’. This is the highest
devotion – to vanish and be lost or submerged in this vast
unknown.
543
The Awareness of Pure Existence got the feeling ‘I am’, and from
this seed this entire world or universe was born.
544
The first step is to go to the ‘I am’ and dwell there and from there
you go beyond consciousness and no-consciousness to infinite
consciousness. In that permanent ‘Parabrahman’ state you become
completely desire less and silent and even the thought ‘I am’
doesn’t arise. The mind dwelling in the pure ‘I am’ state is a very
subtle and purified mind, but Reality is beyond that.
545
The Consciousness of ‘I am’ is the sole capital you have, dwell on
this and nothing else is necessary, all concepts will disappear and
you will be left unidentified with anything. From where does the ‘I
am’ consciousness come and to where it goes? This is to be found
out. When you were born what exactly happened? – Did you desire
it, or it just happened?
546
To earn your livelihood you have to think about your practical
pursuits, but once they are over return back to this thoughtless,
formless contemplation of ‘I am’. Do carry out your activities but
remember that ‘You’ are Godly and completely untarnished by
these activities. When you are in this ‘Ishwara’ state, all these
activities in the world will go on spontaneously.
547
All yogas and practices come through the consciousness of ‘I am’
only, which is itself an illusion. Whatever is happening in this
illusion, yoga, ‘Kundalini’ or anything else, is relative and time bound.
548
Food, sleep and procreation, this is happening everywhere in the
objective world, whether you are Christian, Hindu or Muslim, but
all these experiences are through the consciousness ‘I am’, which
is itself an illusion.
549
The entire objective world rises and sets with this consciousness ‘I
am’ which has infinite powers to become whatever it wants. But
this again would only be a dream and not in Reality, where nothing
has ever happened or changed at all.
550
The objective world is nothing but a sport or art of this ‘I am’
consciousness. Your true nature is beyond this. There is no
intrinsic value in this consciousness of ‘I am’, except to know and
realize its illusory nature.
551
Once we have accepted the definition of Reality of being that
which persists or is at all times the same, then we know that
Reality can never change. The objective world and the
consciousness of ‘I am’ (In deep sleep there is no feeling of ‘I am’)
is constantly changing, so from this we can infer that whatever
changes is only an appearance and not a Reality.
552
Study the nature of this ‘I am’ consciousness. Once you understand
the nature of this consciousness and that it is untrue, then all your
search is over, there is no more effort required.
553
As long you have an attribute you have desire. From where has this
attribute come? It has come from this consciousness ‘I am’, but his
again has only appeared on your true State, which does not change.
554
Any knowledge, art or science, comes through this ‘I am’
consciousness. You can become perfect in any art, skill, or science,
but this is still ultimately all false or impermanent, for the ‘I am’
itself is a false or impermanent thing. I cannot really tell you the
story of Myself for It cannot be expressed in words.
555
There is happiness and unhappiness in this world only because of
this consciousness of ‘I am’. This consciousness of ‘I am’ is the
world. With the touch of this ‘I am’ consciousness, this world
comes into existence. Without the ‘I am’ consciousness, you are
untouched or absolutely pure. There is no cause or reason for this
consciousness of ‘I am’, it has just simply appeared.
556
The ‘I am’ consciousness in its pristine purity is the Guru or God –
Once you have respect for this, it will reveal all the necessary
knowledge to you and you will then understand that You are
beyond this ‘I’ consciousness.
557
In truth the ‘I am’ consciousness was never there, so when it goes,
what do I lose? Do I die or remain what I ever have been? There in
that state, there is no ‘God’ – no sense of separateness at all, no ‘I
am’.
558
Without the intellect you know, or you are, the true state. But as
soon as the intellect comes into play it is the operation of the ‘I am’
consciousness.
559
My true state is always without this ‘I am’ consciousness – so if
you live with this Knowledge, you won’t be always thinking about
death and contemplating death, and hence you will live longer
physically as your mind and body will be free of unnecessary
tensions, thoughts and beliefs.
560
Unless the knowledge of ‘I am’ or Guru’s grace blesses you, you
will not be able to comprehend your true nature. Even this ‘I am’
consciousness does not really need anything. Your true state is
beyond this ‘I am’ and it has no needs or requirements at all.
561
You should use this power of discrimination always, and find out
in truth, whether you really are a person. If you truly inquire you
will find that you were never a person at all. Even the ‘Great
Cause’ or Creator (‘Ishwara’ or God) finally is only a word. The
‘Great cause’ is the ‘I am’ consciousness.
562
The experience of the world comes through the consciousness of ‘I
am’. In the dream state you have the illusion of being awake (you
feel that the dream is real while you are dreaming, the
consciousness of ‘I am’ is operating) but what is illusory in this?
The consciousness itself is illusion, that we are sitting here and
talking is itself illusory.
563
All this talking and discussion we are doing here is because of the
consciousness ‘I am’. This consciousness ‘I am’ is illusory and
completely unreal to the ‘Jnani’. Ultimately, until you can leave off
completely the feeling of personality you will not be able to fully
comprehend the Absolute Reality.
564
This ‘I am’ consciousness is great for it creates the vast world, but
You are greater, for You are the Reality behind and beyond this ‘I
am’ consciousness. You have come to me to ask me something and
I have told you that ‘You are the Reality’, so remember this, stick
to this and live by this knowledge. You are the Reality. You are the
‘Parabrahman’, so meditate on this and remember this, and finally
the idea that ‘I am Parabrahman’ will also leave you.
565
The consciousness ‘I am’ has a little distance from the True state,
hence it is unreal, for whatever is away from the True state or
Reality is unreal.
566
You say that the consciousness of ‘I am’ is in the body, but the
body is known to be impermanent or unreal, hence this
consciousness in its pristine purity isfully manifest (i.e. it has the
entire universe as its body). It has only one attribute ‘I am’, but
without name, shape or form. Yet it is my true state, which
understands this and is still beyond this.
567
God (‘I am’) is time-bound. He is only an appearance on our true
state. You as the Reality exist first, and only then does the idea of
God arise.
568
Simply understand that the ‘I am’ consciousness in you in its
pristine purity is itself God (the creator of the universe). So if you
want anything pray to this ‘Iam’ consciousness in yourself.
569
The consciousness of ‘I am’ is ultimately the same as the mind.
The whole vast universe is really in this mind or the consciousness
of ‘I am’, which is an appearance only.
570
My true position is at all times beyond this consciousness of ‘I
am’. Whatever comes out of this ‘I’ consciousness (mind, body,
world etc) – when I know that I am not this, why should I depend
on any mind, method, idea or technique which come out of this
illusory consciousness?
571
Once I have realized the nature of this consciousness of ‘I am’,
how it has appeared on my true nature and that it is truly only an
illusory thing. When I have fully known and realized this, then the
consciousness of ‘I am’ (within which is contained the vast
universe), dissolves or merges in Me.
572
The consciousness of ‘I am’ is the world, and there is nothing
wrong in seeing or witnessing this world. The mistake comes in
only when you take it to be real, as we almost all wrongly do.
